[It helps that Steve doesn't push into the kiss or initiate more touch, that he remains still and doesn't close in further. He nods and follows him in. The kitchen is warm and homey and filled with the smell of freshly cooked food.] I could eat, sure.
[Steve's tired, but happy. He's been helping Bucky in the fields but not as much as he would like too. He also has the store to man. He sets the basket on the counter and smiles over his shoulder at Len.]
[Steve plates up the food and carries it out with him while Len carries the drinks and ice. He sets a little basket of condiments down as well before going back for the salad bowl. He takes his seat across from Len and smiles warmly at the other man.]
Busy, but good. [He relates a few minor stories about hiring another blackjack dealer, running the tables to better train the staff on how to spot cheats - after all that's how he "won" enough money to buy the casino - relatively quiet for New Dodge.] Nothing eventful.
[Steve eats and listens to Len talk. He could listen to him talk...watch his hands as he expresses himself in something he's passionate about, for hours on end and never get bored. He truly loves this man and would do anything and everything to win back his trust and heart. He swallows a sip of beer and nods when Len finishes talking.]
Good and also busy. I've been helping Buck clear the fields when I'm not in the shop. [He tells Len about all the things they've been doing around the farm to try and prepare to replant as well as make sure they're ordering enough supplies based on what they currently have that's still good. He's sad he's not as much of a help as he wants to be because of other obligations.
He tells him the shop is going well and about a painting he'd started.]
The Council can always help fund additional work done on the farm. The food he grows benefits the town, it's time they turn around and help the farm out. [Bucky is Steve's best friend and Leonard is grateful that he has somewhere to stay.
Which is something they do need to talk about given that Steve's ward is still living on the ship without him, but that can come later. Steve lights up as he talks about the shop and he can't help but feel a surge of unexpected wistfulness. The shop he helped him set up. The shop where they shared their first kiss.]
I'd like to see it.
In fact we could use some more art in the casino, a few pieces here and there to brighten up some of the dining areas.
[Steve smiles at the mention of art for the casino] Is that a request for some pieces? [He wipes his hands on a napkin and picks up his beer swirling it around a little before taking a drink and setting it back down.]
So...I um...I was thinking maybe I should come get Hope and her things this weekend.
I'm sure we can come to some sort of arrangement. [A smirk as he sits back. They can clean up the dishes later.
And there it is. Steve addressing the issue directly.] You don't have to.
[He holds up a hand to forestall any questions, protest, or anything because this is something Leonard has been thinking about since their last lunch date.] I don't know if I'm ready to share a room again. We can try but I'm not sure.. how well I'll do. [His lips twist at the admission, clearly annoyed with himself.]
[Steve lets Len finish talking before he nods and turns sad eyes on him] I'm not ready, Len. I want to be...but I don't trust myself and I'm not comfortable being there right now. At least not staying there.
Fair enough. [If there is any disappointment in his eyes he's careful to rein it back in. What he wouldn't give to have something of their past back, to curl into his arms and feel safe again.]
If you need to move her out, let me know when and I'll make sure Gideon is aware.
[Is that right? Leonard will take the dream catcher from his room that night and break into the house to place it in Steve's room. Not the greatest of crimes but still a challenge to outwit two supersoldiers.]
If you're not ready, that's fine. But I'll be the judge of what I can and can't handle. [Not exactly a stinging rebuke as much a gently teasing reminder.]
We both do. [He stands up and offers Steve his hand. Again, careful to initiate touch. If Steve takes it, he'll move them back to the swing. They can sit beside one another and hold hands. Not much, but it's slow progress moving forward.]
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Hey, you think maybe you can say something to Mick about making Bucky take a break?
Are you referring to me or yourself? [He returns the gentle squeeze and wishes he was brave enough or allowed to wrap his arm around Len. To hold him close]
Thank you. For everything. For a second chance. For this.
It's fine. [It only takes a few steadying breaths to calm his pulse again. He can smell Steve's skin, the fresh and clean scent that is a part of him and it's familiar. Safe.] I'm okay just like this.
[Steve makes a soft sound of understanding and relaxes a little bit more. He can smell Len beside him and it makes him feel calm and loved....like he's home.]
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It looks good.
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Wanna eat out on the porch? It's nice out.
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I think we're ready out there.
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So, how was your day?
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You?
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Good and also busy. I've been helping Buck clear the fields when I'm not in the shop. [He tells Len about all the things they've been doing around the farm to try and prepare to replant as well as make sure they're ordering enough supplies based on what they currently have that's still good. He's sad he's not as much of a help as he wants to be because of other obligations.
He tells him the shop is going well and about a painting he'd started.]
Maybe I can show you when it's finished.
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Which is something they do need to talk about given that Steve's ward is still living on the ship without him, but that can come later. Steve lights up as he talks about the shop and he can't help but feel a surge of unexpected wistfulness. The shop he helped him set up. The shop where they shared their first kiss.]
I'd like to see it.
In fact we could use some more art in the casino, a few pieces here and there to brighten up some of the dining areas.
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So...I um...I was thinking maybe I should come get Hope and her things this weekend.
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And there it is. Steve addressing the issue directly.] You don't have to.
[He holds up a hand to forestall any questions, protest, or anything because this is something Leonard has been thinking about since their last lunch date.] I don't know if I'm ready to share a room again. We can try but I'm not sure.. how well I'll do. [His lips twist at the admission, clearly annoyed with himself.]
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If you need to move her out, let me know when and I'll make sure Gideon is aware.
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I'm having night terrors. I don't want to put you through that.
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Leonard will take the dream catcher from his room that night and break into the house to place it in Steve's room. Not the greatest of crimes but still a challenge to outwit two supersoldiers.]
If you're not ready, that's fine.
But I'll be the judge of what I can and can't handle. [Not exactly a stinging rebuke as much a gently teasing reminder.]
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I understand. I love you Lenny, and I want to be with you desperately in more ways than one, but I guess I need more time.
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Hey, you think maybe you can say something to Mick about making Bucky take a break?
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Sounds familiar.
I'll ask him about it.
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Thank you. For everything. For a second chance. For this.
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New Dodge is the land of second chances isn't it?
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