Female werewolves back home can't have babies because the shift is too hard on the fetus and they lose it and Samuel always thought that because my shift is easy and I don't HAVE to shift that maybe I could carry a baby to term and I've gone two years without shifting before even though it was miserable.
And maybe it would be fine, but I can't risk it, so...
I'm sorry, I shouldn't have bothered you. I don't want you worrying about me. I'll be okay, I swear. It's just... a lot.
A lot, a lot, a lot.
The whole thing is overwhelming and I feel ashamed even though I shouldn't. I just need to remember I'm not alone and I don't need to get everything done at once.
Mercy, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that this happened and I'm sorry you feel like you are a single mom, but at least you're not alone. This situation is so different than any other one either of us could have come up with back in our home worlds. No man left you. It's like a miracle, right? Like Mary and the virgin birth.
This baby has been bestowed on you. It's a gift. And I am sorry your memories make you sad, but you have Bucky and I. We are here for you. Always. You can do this. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Oh no, you did not just go there! Let's leave Mary out of this!
I'm glad you guys are here for me. I'm glad I'm not alone the way my mother was. I'm sure at some point be able to see the child as a gift. But right now it's still hard.
Besides, even Jemma says I'm handling this a whole lot better than she would have, so I don't feel so bad about taill being freaked out about it all.
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Message #5
Female werewolves back home can't have babies because the shift is too hard on the fetus and they lose it and Samuel always thought that because my shift is easy and I don't HAVE to shift that maybe I could carry a baby to term and I've gone two years without shifting before even though it was miserable.
And maybe it would be fine, but I can't risk it, so...
Oh hell.
Message #6
Then I'll be fine.
I AM fine.
Don't worry. I'll... talk to you later.
And...
after listening to ALL the messages
I haven't shared any of these with Bucky yet.
I'm worried about you.
Re: after listening to ALL the messages
I'm sorry, I shouldn't have bothered you. I don't want you worrying about me. I'll be okay, I swear. It's just... a lot.
A lot, a lot, a lot.
The whole thing is overwhelming and I feel ashamed even though I shouldn't. I just need to remember I'm not alone and I don't need to get everything done at once.
But it's hard.
Re: after listening to ALL the messages
Bucky and I are here for you. No matter what. Please, let us help you.
Re: after listening to ALL the messages
And I have to learn to come to terms with it and with being what I always swore I would never be. Single mom, baby out of wedlock.
And it's just bringing up... lots of bad memories.
Re: after listening to ALL the messages
This baby has been bestowed on you. It's a gift. And I am sorry your memories make you sad, but you have Bucky and I. We are here for you. Always. You can do this. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Re: after listening to ALL the messages
I'm glad you guys are here for me. I'm glad I'm not alone the way my mother was. I'm sure at some point be able to see the child as a gift. But right now it's still hard.
Besides, even Jemma says I'm handling this a whole lot better than she would have, so I don't feel so bad about taill being freaked out about it all.