tcnetwork | Allison Argent

...I just can't go back to how things were when Peter left. Bell kept me grounded before, with him gone though, I'm not sure there's anyone else that would be willing to go through the hell he did.

[She knew she got into worse moods before Scott took her in, especially around the moon. Bell hadn't been scared of her and gave her the security she needed.]

I know, Glimmer, and trust me. It won't be like that again. Scott's nothing like Peter. Things will be just fine.

I'm scared.

Peter didn't mean to leave...he was an ass to me at times and I know he didn't care about me, but I don't think he would have just left me alone if he'd had a choice.

You don't know Peter like we do. He doesn't care about anyone but himself. He was actually the one to turn Scott.

He turned Bell and me.

I know he doesn't care about anyone else and he would have sacrificed me if he needed to. ...But at the same time, he was one of the first people here to see something desirable in me.

Is that what you saw it as? He did it because he wanted to strengthen his pack, Glimmer. Nothing more than that.

He had to have saw something more in me. There were stronger people, but he chose me.

He just wanted to strengthen his pack. Trust me on that, please.

[Whimpering, she curled up tighter. If Allison is right and she really was useless to Peter, just a warm body that would obey him...she didn't see why anyone else would even bother with her.]

Then what's the point? If he made me and didn't want me, why should anyone else? It's the same story from home...I was stupid to think he wanted me...

No, it's not the same story from home. Scott wants you as pack or you wouldn't be part of the pack, Glimmer. Peter's always been a dick, unfortunately. That's just how he always is. But you have pack and family here.

I don't see why he'd want me. Peter wanted my strength, Chen wanted my body, and my parents wanted the fame. He has nothing to gain from me.

Glimmer, look, Scott wants you because you're YOU. Because you're a strong independent person. Because you will do anything to help your friends and your pack. And don't even get me started on Chen because we won't go there.

[It's a good thing Chen wasn't there or she'd get in trouble for putting an arrow through him. Or her claws.]

For all he knows I'd let the whole pack die. It'd what everyone else thinks so why shouldn't he.

As for Chen, he was right. I had been naive when I thought he'd loved me, something he made sure I knew when he told me I was just a bargain fuck.

[She wasn't sure what brought yo this mindset, but perhaps she was just preparing herself so it wouldn't hurt when Scott told her he had no place for her.]

Glimmer, stop it. Just stop. You don't know Scott like I do. I love you like a sister, but you need to stop this. Scott isn't going to turn you away.

[She takes a deep breath.]

If something happened here in New Dodge would you let me die? Would you let Scott's friends die?

Everyone turns me away when they realize I can't be what they want. I thought I could do it, but when Hester pushed my buttons, I just...I couldn't stop myself.

[She tried to be nicer, but she always seemed to snap without realizing it. Not until someone called her on it.]

I wouldn't let you die. ...And I'd try to help his friends. It doesn't make me a good person though, just selfish.

You don't realize how much it says that you wouldn't let any of us die, Glimmer. Also, stop treating us like we're the son of a bitches from your world that will have their throats ripped out and fed to them. No one is going to turn you away.

[Definitely not Allison, at any rate.]

I'm just scared I'm going to be alone again.

...I was talking with Silas before and I didn't realize how scared I was until the first time I thought I was losing the pack. It was when I had that client I blacklisted...I had been okay with the thought of dying.

[The act she's opening up to Allison about something she'd only spoke to Silas about spoke volumes.]

You're never going to be alone. Not now or ever. Nor would I let you die. Though I'm glad there's someone out there you're talking to.

Silas is...special to me. Always has been.

[She wouldn't say love, not when she wasn't sure that was what she felt for him.]

Has to be a bit more than that if you can open up to him easily.

Pillowtalk mostly. He's used to weres and helped me when I wasn't sure who I could ask about the changes I went through.

He wanted me to get help, but I can't trust a stranger like that.

You could've asked any one of us, Glimmer. We would've helped you.

I didn't trust any of you initially...couldn't. Even if I could've though, Peter wouldn't have approved. That thought stayed even after he fluxed and didn't start to leave until Scott said he'd take me into his pack.

It doesn't matter what in the hell Peter would've done. You still could've come to us and we would've helped.

He scared me sometimes. Peter was...unpredictable, but I still had a desire to please him.

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